Can you imagine getting married in 5 years?
When you enter Costco, there's an awkward but palpable feeling of family almost incomparable to anything else. The place is ridden with families looking to stock up for the upcoming weeks and even months. But this was something I realized recently, to which I wondered why. It's a pretty obvious observation and something that'll be a given for as long as Costco is a wholesale store. I figured it was starting, that is the continued years of friends heading towards marriage. I quickly recalled the last wedding I went to, realizing that they weren't really much older than I, and also remembered the next wedding coming up, again with people barely older than I. I wasn't sure how to think. Was I getting old or just coming around that age? That is until I remembered the multitude of people 10 years older than me and without a significant other. Still, I had to wonder... could I imagine getting married in 5 years? The short answer is no but five years is an extremely long time. Even then, I'm not sure how I came up with the number five anyways. I guess it sounds nice and 25/26 seems to be an ideal age to get married. The question of who I'll get married to is daunting of them all, assuming that I'll even get married. So, forgive me when I occasionally wonder if the girl sitting in front of me might, just potentially, be the person I marry. Surely it's a reasonable deduction and almost anything is a distinct possibility in this whimsical world. Imagination will always take you places beyond wonder, though, and perhaps it'd be best to leave such things out of mind. And, again, five years? Five years ago from today, I was stuck with an utter disdain for high school. People were looking forward to almost meaningless dating. Skip forward five years and, let's be honest, it's not much different, if not worse.
Beyond that, the two spectrum of marriage varies from increasing extremes. The blissful happiness is just that and bitter fights, well, just that. And the responsibilities? Probably the one thing most couples don't even consider. Suddenly, everything is labeled as a spouse on the internet and things that used to be simply checked off as "single" no longer applies. With it comes even more lines to fill and a nuisance that needs to be realized and balanced with happiness. And you're asking me to do this in, what, five years? But for what it's worth, when love makes its way to a heart, there's not much you can do to resist. I probably just don't know how it really feels because, well, I'm not married.
Above all, I think this is a topic that'll continue to elude me for a while. I find it that when we look and expect, we often find disappointment. For now, I'll stay feeling 10 years away from marriage, when in reality I might get marred in five. Maybe three.
Maybe that's why I'll never get married.